Too much rambling.

I have a lot to say today. So prepare to read. A lot.

What did I do today? I cleaned, but it looks like I didn't, already. My mom is on the verge of pigness. It looks worse than when I started. I showered and took care of my brother and left for Sears, Circuit City, Borders, Barnes & Noble and finally, Lowe's. (I hate Lowe's, but then again I dislike any hardware store.)

I bought three books, two which were for the summer reading, go me! (I'm doing it again!!) I bought Frankenstein by Mary Shelly, Miracle at St. Anna by James McBride and Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk. The funniest guy worked at Borders. Ha ha. What else? I bought McDonald's but didn't get to eat it, boo me. I started the book of Mark and read a little by Ken Ham. I have a lot to read. Yay. It'll give me something to do.

I bought the Coldplay album, because it's amazing and it deserves to be bought, not illegally downloaded. I'm almost done with my birthday wish-list.

I am thinking of applying for a job I saw downtown. I can be a cashier/waitress. I don't mind. I guess I need money. I do plan to move out a couple of years from now. By couple I mean two to four years. But we'll see what God gives me.

My mom and I are having problems again. I guess it's my inability of communicating my thoughts and feelings. I have been dramatically trying to be a good daughter and I've been doing anything that would seem to please her, but I've failed. The feeling in my chest tells me I failed and there's nothing else I can do about it.

I've tried to keep any altercation to a minimum seeing how she is sick, but it has yet to work. I refuse to apologize until I feel it's genuine. I know she won't apologize and I have grown accustomed to this. It's sad but it's honestly how I feel and what I go through.

Wanted:
I think I'm watching that movie for my birthday. Yess! I'm 17, as in I can watch it now. Legally. Not that I would do anything illegally.

Until later.