Gym Class Heroes

I'm I late, or what?

I really do enjoy the whole rap/rock genres intertwining. I wish that was done with more types of music. Like country/pop. Wait, doesn't Taylor Swift already do that? Well, I'm just saying, two is better than one, right?

Anyway, I really enjoyed the song Taxi Driver by GCH. The many references to bands in this song alone is really cool. I was really excited that they mentioned Death Cab for Cutie AND the Postal Service. No wonder Ben Gibbard loves this song. He's all over it.

So I changed the lyrics a bit so I can sing it, or rap it...

I took CUTIE FOR a ride in my DEATH CAB
He tipped me with a hug, I dropped him off at the next cab
Before he left, he made a DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL
And spilled his guts in CURSIVE

But what's worse is
I can still see his BRIGHT EYES like SUNNY DAY REAL ESTATE
Oh my, and the funny way the ceiling tastes
So high, but no chance,
MY little CHEMICAL ROMANCE left a BAD TASTE IN MY MOUTH

But I approached him like, 'hey Marcus, why the long face
Why you cryin? No need
Just put on this COHEED and FALL OUT...
BOY MEETS GIRL, JIMMY EAT WORLD
But schlep eats pills 'til he's all out

Not once, not twice, he was THRICE times a man
Acting all BRAND NEW but I had to
Bounce over to the POSTAL SERVICES to
Pick up these pills to take care of my nervousness and

On the way I saw PLANES and MISTOOK 'em for STARS
He played games but he took 'em too far
AT THE DRIVE IN eating some corn
And you could tell by the TRAIL OF THE DEAD that there was something in the popcorn

Hopped in my cab destination MIDTOWN
Just to GET UP with some KIDS that like to get down
I made my rounds and that was that
In between the frowns and scraps and heart attacks

And I remember, I seen his face in EARLY NOVEMBER
On a THURSDAY, TAKING BACK SUNDAY for a refund
He shot a wink like 'No hard feelings'
Then he jetted to Brazil, man, them pills had me spun

Yea it's the story of the year right here
This is HOT WATER MUSIC, just rhymin' to it

I miss writing mindlessly.

I feel a lot like this guy:

In the sevent grade, I was the next Melville. My sophomore year in high school everything changed.
Papers i pained over came back littered with hholierthanthou jargon that was nearly indecipherable. What comments I could read, I wished I could not. The verdict was in: the pen truly was mighter than the sword.
-Rich Balling

is the the same reason that when i am alone in my apartment i set up the pillows on my bed to face the door, with my phone in my hand, 911 already dialed
-Craig Owens

I can't say I'm always happy with who I am. But daily I'm at battle with a personal sense of defeat I feel everyone's born with. Original sin.
-Anthony Green

I watched New Moon this weekend (like all other girls in the country) and as much as I bash it, I'm reading Breaking Dawn. I'm so into unrequited love... and I think I know why. It's the whole thing that was spoken by Pepper to Rachel. How they fall for guys they can't have because they know that can't get too hurt. So maybe that's why I like the Jacob-Bella relationship.

That's why I'm Team Jacob.

The point is I'm reading Breaking dawn, I'm not even half way there, but the more Jacob there is the better. He's so sweet and much more pure than Edward.

Tomorrow is Rosemary's celebration. I really am excited to be celebrating with her. I miss spending time with her. I miss the way we could talk and just bond. Bonding for life!!!

I really wonder what will become of me once I'm older.......

Sweetest thing ever!

So I was watching The Office last night, and I've decided. My husband has to be as sweet as Jim Halpert! I just love how he loves her.

Jim: Four years ago I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing that I've ever had to do, which was just to wait. Don't get me wrong. I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family that I do know how to make a photocopy. Didn't need your help that many times. And do you remember how long it took you to teach me how to drive stick?
Pam: Like a year.
Jim: I've been driving stick since high school. For a really long time that's all I had. I just had little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl who I worked with. But I think even then I knew I was waiting for my wife.

Jim: I bought those boat tickets the day I saw that YouTube video. I knew we needed a back-up plan. The boat was actually Plan C. The church was actually Plan B. And Plan A was marrying her a long long time ago. Pretty much the day I met her.

He's so sweet. I love their marriage.

Fun. - Aim & Ignite

Be Calm --
As I walk through the streets of my new city my back feeling much better,
I suppose I've reclaimed the use of my imagination for better or for worse,
I've yet to know but I always knew you'd be the one to understand me,
I guess that's why it took so long to get things right.

Suddenly I'm lost on my street on my block oh why oh why oh why haven't you been there for me?
Can't you see,
I'm losing my mind this time?
This time it's for real,
I can see the tops of trees are turning red the beggars near bodegas grin at me I think they want something I close my eyes,
I tell myself to breathe and be calm.

Be calm.

I know you feel like you are breaking down.

I know it gets so hard sometimes.

Be calm.

I'm scared that everyone is out to get me.

"These days before you speak to me you pause."

"I always see you looking out your window."

"After all you lost your band,
you left your mom."

Now every single crack,
every penny that I pass,
says I should either leave or pick it up but with every single buck I've made I'm saddled with bad luck that came the moment I was baptized or when I found out one day I'm gonna die if only I could find my people or my place in life and when they come a'carolin' so loud,
so bright,
the theremin will lead us to a chorus where we'll all rejoice and sing a song that goes:
Oh be calm.

Be calm.

I know you feel like you are beaking down.

I know that it gets hard sometimes,
be calm.

Take it from me,
I've been there a thousand times.

You hate your pulse because it thinks you're still alive and everything's wrong it just gets so hard sometimes be calm.

I don't remember much that night,
just walking,
thinking fondly of you thinking how the worst is yet to come when from that street corner came a song and I can't remember the man,
the panhandler or his melody.

The words exchanged had far exceeded any change I'd given thee.


Benson Hedges --

Holy ghosts,
when do you come out to play?

'Cause if the Lord is gonna find me,
He'd better start looking today.

Last week my baby hit the slopes.

I spent the weekend setting traps in the road.

I should have been cutting out my eyelids,
you'll never guess what baby ddi when she got home.

Na na na na now at least the birds are singing to me,
but what they're trying to say,
I don't know.

(you're beautiful) I think they come from the cold (for all your big mistakes) I think they come from the cold (you stayed the same) to the city that don't snow.

So I drove until we both broke down.

I was stranded in a border town believing the motel TV would bring me to safety,
but between MTV and Mr. O'Reilly I've come to find,
that I can't be defined so I turned it off,
now convinced I would cross took one last look at gold as it shattered on a mountaintop.

Now I believe the sun, it's like symphony.

But what it's trying to play,
I don't know.

(you're beautiful) I think it's come for the cold.

(for all your big mistakes) I think it's come for the cold.

(you stayed the same) To the city that don't snow.

C'mon, holy ghosts when do you come out to play?

'Cause if the Lord is gonna find me,
He'd better start looking today.

So I can rise with the river we all float before we sink so pray for satellites,
pray for courtesy and pray that it can climb mountains to me!

I say goodbye to the canyon.

I will set sail to the streets where I don't care to be forgiven I want to be forgotten.

I don't care to be forgiven when Lord I only want to be forgotten!

Now I receive a call from my family and what they started to say brought me home.

(you're beautiful) They think I'm beautiful (for all your big mistakes) they think I'm beautiful (you're beautiful) for all my big mistakes.


All the Pretty Girls --

So I call your name,
cross my fingers uncross the others,
hesitate.

I don't think straight with nothing to prove.

I don't wanna say I'm leaving so I'll stay until the weekend.

And you can take all your things;
the boxes and rings and get going.

'Cause I've been waiting for...

All the pretty girls on a Saturday night.

Let it be,
and coem to me with the look in your eyes.

Will you break an take all the worlds from my mouth?

I wish all the pretty girls were shaking me down.

So I call you out just to feel a little better about myself and I do, baby I do.

'Til their lips start to move,
and their friends wanna talk music I say "I've never heard the tune!"

But I have, I just hate the band 'cause they remind me of you.

Every single night ends up the same,
I don't say much at all,
but I bring up your name.

(Over and over and over) I think it's striking me out.

All the pretty girls on a Saturday night let it be,
and come to me wit the look in your eyes.

Will you break and take all the words from my mouth?

I wish all the pretty girls were shaking me down.

But not you,
you still wear boots and your hair is too long and then this one doesn't want to admit she's fallen in love oh c'mon,
oh c'mon,
what's a boy to do when all the pretty girls can't measure to you.

I don't understand your reasons please just say over the weekend you can't take all those things they define you and me everything we've become,
you're all that I need please don't make me face my generation alone.

All the pretty girls on a Saturday night.

Let it be,
and come to me with the look in your eyes.

Will you break and take all the words from my mouth?

I wish all the pretty girls were shaking me down.

But not you,
I feel your faith is destroying the world and then this one doesn't want to admit the 80s is over and done oh c'mon,
what's a boy to do,
when all the pretty girls can't measure to you

I Wanna Be The One --

Were you named for the river that surrounds all my biggest mistakes?

Or the way that I made it out?

All the muscles in my mouth never smiled or said profound things until the day she handed you to me.

For all the steps you'll take and all you'll overcome I wanna be the one to put it in a song.

Take every single tear for all the world to hear.

I wanna be the one to put it in a song.

Cigarettes are raining hard on the upper east side.

She brings me cake,
we celebrate I have arrived.

And I know it's been sang before,
but you're my human holiday.

I put my hands to the table and dare say...

"The love of my life?"

And you're brother with his best friend share the name of an inebriate that couldn't bring me down!

For everything you've lost,
and all you've overcome I wanna be the one to put it in a song.

Take every single tear for all the world to hear I wanna be the one to put it in a song and make it last forever.

Clever comes in truth.

When truth begets the past it sends a call up to the moon and the moon can see the beauty that surrounds your heart as it pounds.

It starts the beat inspiring me until I make a sound.


At Least I'm Not As Sad As I Used to Be --

Have you ever wondered about our old nu-metal friends and what became of them?

Turns out I saw them,
a couple of days ago.

They were laughing, and drinking, and smoking, and singing "Come one can you count all the notches in you belt?"

I'd rather not,
let's just say I'm starving myself.

"Baby put your name down on a piece of paper."

I don't want no savior, baby, I just wanna have a good time.

At least I'm not as sad as I used to be.

They said "Hey Nate!"

"Yeah,
it's been a while,"
"So are you gonna stay?"

Ha!

I began to smile,
and I said:
"You should have seen me,
a couple of years ago,
I was laughing,
and drinking,
and smoking,
and singing."

"Come on can you count all the loves that didn't last?"

It's such a gas when you bring up the past.

"Baby put your name down on a piece of paper."

I don't want no savior,
baby,
I just wanna get it on!

At least I'm not as sad as I used to be.

They said:
"We would have seen you two years ago,
had you stuck around,
or come out to a show.

But you was taken over by Rock 'N' Roll...

while we were laughing,
and drinking,
and smoking,
and singing...

So I left.

That's it.

That's my life.

Nothing is sacred.

I don't keep friend, I keep acquainted.

I'm not a prophet,
but I'm here to profit.

That's all.

I'm gone.

That's my life.

Nothing is sacred.

I don't fall in love,
I just fake it.

I don't fall in love,
I don't fall in love.


Light a Roman Candle With Me --

Light a Roman candle with me.

Just a Roman candle,
you can wear your sandals and I'll pour you just one cup of tea.

Then you can go to rest you haven't seen my best,
so...

Just spend an evening with me.

Just a lazy evening,
then you could be leaving or we could stay and talk until three.

I will think it's magic and I'll hope you agree,
so...

Light a Roman candle with me.

Just a Roman candle.

Just a perfect apple.

If we were honest and both wrote a sonnet together a sandwich with everything on it,
at least we would knwo that the sparks didn't glow but we owe it to ourselves to try,
so we aim and ignite!

So often I call and I plead with you:
"Give me a chance!"

It's not often that I understand the ins and the outs of what's wrong and what's right.

So don't think of tomorrow tonight.

Oh, I know, it goes on, it gets old but for now we're young,
we smell good,
we're alone...

You look for a legend,
I'm looking for common ground.

Your heart isn't breaking,
and mine isn't making a sound.

Oh I know,
it goes one,
it gets old oh I know,
it goes one, it gets old...

Light a Roman candle with me.

Just a Roman candle,
just a perfect apple.


Walking The Dog --

Walking alone 'cause the night is dead.

Crossed my mind when I crossed the bridge.

How you lost your mind,
and your wrist got bruised,
and you wanted better love when it was sleeping in your bedroom.

Hold on,
stay on my side,
don't go.

If you could see me whoever I am.
It's not like the movies,
but it's not all skin and bones.

So come one love (come on,
come one,
come all and go) nah nah nah nah nah nah nah I will not let you go.

Now I'm walking alone 'cause the night is dead.
My feet don't glide like they did back then,
when I would call you up so we could shoot the moon.

These days I'm left to how I in tune.

Hearts do break and I must admit I found a verse and a chorus so I might have been faking it.

Think I might have only cried just once.

After all the shows,
after the boys of summer had gone amid all the confusion and friend I've been losing I always thought from the start I'd be the one moving on.

I guess I'll never know where the boys of summer will go but I'll miss what we made and the days were not wasted.

There are some things I may never know.

How you lost your mind,
and your write got bruised and you wanted better love well it's sleeping in your bedroom.

Hold on,
stay on my side,
don't go.


Barlights --

Never in my life have I seen eyes as empty as these streets of my city on a Saturday night,
all the green of your eyes says "Go,
leave it all behind."

But I don't need to be reminded a change is gonna come.

I can feel it on the tip of your tongue.

And I feel alive.

We met up once we'd settled the sun between the heat and the work week the far is we could use some sleep but sleep to a superfluous man means better use for beds and I'll bet I'm coming home tonight.

I don't need to be reminded that this is how it was.

I moved on,
I passed a billboard down in my block that askes if I've had enough,
and aloud I say "I've had too much,"
when the truth is,
I'm just getting started.

Now all the barlights are blinking in tie to Mexican music,
it's taunting the pavement and I feel alive.

One of us sings,
and one of us drinks,
and one of us has nothing at all.

So he calls us all sheep Im the little Bo Peep of the bunch.

(I take their tales and I'm ready to go) Then he swears he's gotta take this call man,
I get scared he's gonna leave us too soon.

We were the get rich kids,
we never got it right so we settled for the center of town where all the rich white kids is out looking for a fight got the blond one staring me down.

And I really wanna take a swing I can't help but remember James Dean see we were part of the few who agree that hey,
he lived life fast but he died.

He died he died.

Me,
I'm gonna live forever.

Now all the barlights are blinking in time to Mexican music it's taunting the pavement anf for the first time in a long time I feel alive.


The Gambler --

Slow down,
we've got time left to be lazy all the kids have bloomed from babies into flowers in our eyes.

We've got 50 good years left to spend in the garden I don't care to beg you pardon,
we should live until we die.

We were barely 18 when we'd crossed collective hearts.

It was cold,
but it got warm when you'd bearly crossed my eye.

And then you turned,
put out your hand,
and you asked me to dance.

I knew nothing of romance,
but it was love at second sight.

I swear when I grow up,
I won't just buy you a rose.

I will buy you the flower shop,
and you will never be lonely.

Even if the sun stops waking up over the fields I will never leave,
I will not leave 'til it's our time.

So just take my hand,
you know that I will never leave your side.

It was the winter of '86, and all the fields had frozen over.

So we moved to Arizona to save our only son and now he's turning into a man,
although he thinks just like his mother,
he believes we're all just lovers he sees hope in everyone.

And even though she moved away,
we always get calls from our daughter.

She has eyes just like her father's they are blue when the skies are grey.

And just like him,
she never stops,
never takes the day for granted,
works for everything that's handed to her,
never once complains.

You think that I nearly lost you when the doctors tried to take you away.

But like the night you took my hand beside the fire 30 years ago this day you swore you'd be here 'til we decide it's our time well it's not time,
you've never quit in all your life.

So just take my hand,
you know that I'll never leave your side.

You're the love of my life,
you know that I'll never leave your side.

You come home from work and kiss me on the eye you curse the dogs and say that I should never feed them what is ours so we move to the garden,
look at everything we've grown and the kids are coming home I'll set the table you make the fire.


Take Your Time (Coming Home) --

Take your time coming home.

Hear the wheels as they roll.

Let your lungs fill up with smoke.

Forgive everyone.

She is here and now she is gone we had plans,
we can't help but make love.

It's a beautiful thing when you love somebody,
and I love somebody.

Yeah I love somebody.

Take your time coming home.

Hear the wheels as they roll.

Let your lungs fill up with smoke.

Forgive everyone.

I don't think I'd been misled,
it was a rocknroll band,
I'm still standing,
take your time coming home.

See,
of everyone who called,
very few said "we believe in you."

The overwhelming choice said I'm just a boy inside a voice and if it's true,
if it's true,
if it's true,
then what the **** have I been doing the last six years?

How did I end up here?

How did I find love and conquer all my fears?

See,
I made it out.

Out from under the sun.

And because truth is that I feel better because I've forgiven everyone.

Now I'm not scared of a sound or the states or the stages.

I'm not scared.

I've got friends,
took my call,
came courageous.

Now I feel like I am home.

One more thing,
I keep having this dream where I'm standing on a mountain looking out,
on the street I can hear kids in low-income housing singing "We're through with causing a scene" I don't know what that means but I too,
I'm through with causing a scene.

She is here and now I think she's ready to go.

For every love that's lost I heard a new one comes.

So come on with me,
sing along with me,
let the wind catch your feet.

If you love somebody,
you'd better let them know.

Take your time coming home.

quotes!

Every problem has a gift for you in it's hands.
Richard Bach

I'm falling in love with you, balloons or no balloons.
The Format

You were the only light I ever saw.
John Mayer

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit.
Aristotle

It's hard to fail, but worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt

Art is part of a rebellion against the realities of unfilled desires.
Emma Goldman

You have to do stuff that average people don't understand because those are the good things.
Andy Warhol

Our patience will achieve more than our force.
Edmund Burke

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
George Bernard Shaw

Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow."
Mary Anne Radmacher

The best part of beauty is that which no picture can express.
Sir Francis Bacon

If an optimist had his left arm chewed off by an alligator, he might say, "Well, this isn't too bad. I don't have my left hand anymore, but at least nobody will ever ask me whether I am right-handed or left-handed," but most of us would say something more along the liens of "Aaaaah! My arm! My Arm!"
Lemony Snicket

Speak little, do much.
Benjamin Franklin

No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world.
Dead Poets Society

If we did all the things we were capable of doing we would astonish ourselves.
Thomas Edison

When I first met her, I knew in a moment I would have to spend the next few days re-arranging my mind so there'd be room for her to stay.
StoryPeople

I love my sleep. My life has a tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?
Earnest Hemingway

Prayer is not an old woman’s idle amusement. Properly understood and applied, it is the most potent instrument of action.
Mahatma Gandhi

Compliments, huh?

Hard to take sometimes.

So The Format is really hitting me right now is:

I wanna see that look in your eyes; I know tho lately ive been out of your sight. . . I'm falling in love with you balloons or no balloons. So its time I forget the past and just learn to love what I have, 'cause i love waking up to your laugh. . . I'll spend the rest of my life with only you by my side. (Janet)
We started wrappin our regrets in cloth. . . We don't take to compliments, but please don't stop. . . We fit into each other, we are Russian dolls, where somewhere in the center sits a beating heart. (Swans)
We know I cant construct a poem, 'cause' words, like girls get bored and run. C'est la vie. I say, "I've got so many better things." I've got nothing. . . I think its safe to say, "I've only got myself to blame." . . . We are parallel lines, we're running in circles, we're never meant to cross. I'm at a loss, you were my tangerine, my pussycat, my trampoline. . . I signed a lease, thinking my heart belonged at 93rd and park. . . Are you listening? This is the sound of my heart breaking, and i hope its entertaining. . . I am the man holding it all, I couldn't breathe. . . B is for believing you'd always be here for me. E is for everything, even when we'd see it though. C, C is for seeing through you, you are a fake, which brings me to A because, because, you always run away. I never finish phrases I misspell. Open arms are prison cells. When i said, "I hate what I've become", I lied, I hated who was. (Dog Problems)
My teeth are all still crooked on the inside. . . When they turn to sleep, you're wide awake; You spend the whole night staring up at the ceiling. (Faith in Fast Cars)

Me and Kanye West.

So yesterday was very inspiring. I had not realized how many people read my articles. Makes me feel a bit more clever. (Insert chuckle here.) So I did not see this coming, but just this Friday I received two compliments from adults (one educator) about my articles. And this educator, that shall go nameless, said her students were asking about me. That has to be so one of the most uplifting things in the world. I am not used to receiving compliments about my writing, I mean, analytically, I don't exactly shine. Although my lit teacher told me otherwise, once!. This is overall really encouraging, and I hope to reach out to the secular world through my writing in a way that I can possibly minister and show Christ in my life.

Today I went to "college." Well, I just went to take the English Placement test. It was a good thing I wasn't overall alone. The exam was actually a bit easier than I expected. I was required to write on the fact that students and children fail to realize the competitiveness in the workforce and there are hardly any graduates in the United States. And I believe I did a good job proving my argument. I gave quotes from President Obama, former President Kennedy and the examples of Jay Leno's "Jay-walking" and the circumstances in third-world nations that prevent children/students from completing school. Fun stuff. The guy's name is Kelly. i thought of "Grace Kelly." (Inside joke.) And yesterday we had been talking about Dwayne Johnson and there was this other guy named Dwayne. (Insert chuckle here.) Good day. My dad got sick so I drove a lot. Too bad I couldn't get the things I wanted done.

It was brought to my attention that Kanye West wrote a song titled "Jesus Walks." And after listening to it, there are a few things that I have to say about it. A few lines that struck out to me were

God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down (Jesus Walks with me)
...
My momma used to say "Only Jesus can save us"
...
The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (Jesus Walks) And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs (Jesus Walks with me) I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long
...
Now hear ye hear ye want to see Thee more clearly I know He hear me when my feet get weary
...
I ain't here to argue about His facial features Or here to convert atheists into believers I'm just trying to say the way school need teachers The way Kathie Lee needed Regis that's the way I need Jesus
...
They say you can rap about anything except for Jesus

.

I agree that only Jesus can save us. His mother was right in saying this. Absolutely right. No other person can keep from hell but him. And I do agree that he shouldn't rap about anything that isn't Jesus. He should be the concentration of all our talk. I don't always do this, but I know he should be. The Devil does try to break us down, but God is there, He's stronger can destroy him. We shouldn't be afraid to call out to God, when we have faith and resort to seeking him, He's always there to listen. And it's true, our job is not to convert but to share Jesus and be a witness to those who don't know him.